my daughter has started “sleeping through the night”. it isn’t truly all the way through (aka 12 hours), but it sure isn’t up every 2 hours! HALLELUJAH! thank you Lord that it’s happening now, before i have to go back to work. she’s sleeping at least 6-7 hours in a row, and then anywhere from 3-5 hours in a row after that. this i can deal with. i’ll even continue feeding her once  a night when i go back to work – it feels like nothing!

speaking of work…i go back February 1st. <sigh> i have very mixed emotions about it all. first of all, i don’t have daycare yet, and that makes it worse, cuz i’m anxious about finding some. i have a couple leads, and several back-up “babysitters”, but nothing firm. i gotta call some people tomorrow.

i’m nervous about having enough energy to work. i’m nervous about finding my nouns again (will they ever come back??!!??) so that i sound intelligent. i’m worried i won’t be able to balance work and home life. i’m scared i won’t be able to do it. i’m scared i’ll miss so many exciting things that R will do. i’m afraid i’ll get sucked into more work than i’ll be able to manage. it’s such a HUGE change. oh yeah – and i’m going to miss my naps LOL. hopefully my sleep debt will get reduced this month. <sigh> i am very conflicted. i never thought i’d say this, but i don’t think i’d mind too much if i had to stay at home with her and not work.

that being said, i am only going back part time. and i’m going to tell her at night, not to do anything exciting at daycare – aka, pull to stand, take her first steps. 😛

so, if you pray, pls keep me in yours, about work. thanks y’all! ❤

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